I Choose Love

heartsMy heart beats faster.

I look at him and I don’t think I could love him anymore than I do today.

His touch makes me feel protected, safe, secure.

His words are soothing when I need them to be, realistic when I need them to be too.

He makes me want to be a better woman because he challenges me to think more, do more and to achieve more.

He loves my children.

He loves me.

How is it possible that I’ve found this kind of love AGAIN in my life? It’s like a dream and I’m afraid of waking up.

When Steve died, I couldn’t sleep. It wasn’t the sleeping that was painful, it was the waking up. Steve was in my dreams with me. When I woke up, I was living in the nightmare of my new life without him. Now, I’ve opened my heart and my life to a love like that all over again only this time I know what I’m risking in a way that I didn’t know when I lost Steve.

I’m risking the gut wrenching pain that caused me to vomit. I’m risking the Earth shattering fear of a new life without the other half of me. I’m risking years of grief, sadness and anxiety. I know this because I’ve been there. It’s the price I paid for loving Steve with my whole heart.

Why would I risk it again?

He’s worth it.

I’m worth it.

Our love is worth it.

There are no guarantees in this life so I choose happiness.

I choose love.

I choose him.

I love you taken from Pinkelephanttv.com

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7 Comments (+add yours?)

  1. davecenker
    Jun 18, 2015 @ 17:29:19

    What a wonderful and heartfelt message filled with authentic emotion. My mantra is inspire and be inspired – thanks for helping me out with the ‘be inspired’ part 🙂

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  2. Wendy
    Jun 18, 2015 @ 18:05:15

    Beautiful. Thank you. Looking forward to love again.

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  3. Brei
    Jun 18, 2015 @ 18:33:51

    This is how I feel at the prospect of meeting someone, dating and all that comes with it. How can it happen twice in my life? Can I find someone to love me & my kids? It’s nice to hear from someone who is there already and understands.

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  4. Widow Strong
    Jun 18, 2015 @ 23:23:07

    Oh how this has made me cry. Tears of happiness for you because you have found love again. Tears for me because I know without doubt at this point in my journey I’m not ready to risk again.

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  5. Sandra Hendrix
    Jun 19, 2015 @ 23:10:17

    You are right! Go for it with all your heart!!!!

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  6. Finding Me Again
    Jun 21, 2015 @ 21:19:05

    You give me hope that one day I will choose love again. Thank you so much for sharing.

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  7. Julie
    Jul 09, 2016 @ 18:00:51

    I am remarrying after 3.5 yrs of being a widow. He too is widower . We both do not love our late spouses any less. We think that because of their love for us we can love again

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